Mom

Mom.  Such a short and to the point title for a job that is far from that.  Mothering is a lifetime commitment and there is nothing easy about it.  The only thing that comes easy is the instant love you have for a life that you've never met.  Whether by adoption or growing in your belly, there is nothing as fierce and protective a feeling that begins from the moment you know a soul has been assigned to your permanent to do, to love and to cherish list.  The rest is hard.

It is hard labor.  It is hard not getting sleep.  It is hard to run errands.  It is hard to leave.  It is hard to watch your baby fall.  It is hard to walk them into school.  It is hard to hear them cry.  It is harder to keep your eyes dry.  It is hard to say no.  It is hard to schedule everything.  It is hard to give more when you thought you had already done that the day before.  It is hard to see yourself in their eyes.  It is hard to let them make the mess and try.  It is harder to pull things off once they can read and tell time!  It is hard to not be hard on ourselves and keep our feelings in line.

Yet no matter the pain, I see it as my greatest gain.  Nothing else defines me like my two boys that came from the place I strive to get their souls back to.  This main event of being "Mom" is worth any anguish.  There are no words to describe the mosts beautiful moments I have had being a mommy.  The smell of a baby, the softness of their skin, their innocence, the trust, the bond, the laughter and the understanding that is unspoken...and as they get older, the understanding that has to be shouted for the 19th time :)

I put my boys to bed.  Once I know they are asleep, I go back and I sit near them and give them kisses they can't refuse.  Tonight I just looked at them and thought about my wonderful mom....how did she do it all these years?  She once told me that "it is a never ending job".  I smiled to myself and thought that is good :)  To think that my greatest title could ever expire, would be very hard.

I created this piece for all the lovely women out there.  For anyone who has already lost their mom.  For anyone who has mourned the loss of a child.  For those who aren't mothers, we as women are capable of loving and nurturing all that is good in life :)

Happy Mother's Day

XOXO